Allison Caviness
Take your time…or someone else will.
Filed under Music Video …
Visual Music.
So shall it be called when the execution is mine.
The Joyous Collapse…a tease
Our ancestors make their transitions
and take their truest positions
in a fluid division
between our hearts and minds.
-Moe Cipher
hella good
it’s so many of the things that i wanted. but from inside…it doesn’t feel the way i wanted it to feel. i’m not the me i thought i’d be. it could be time to adjust the knobs, make the shoe fit…or maybe time to find another dream.
will that make me and endless dream chaser? will anything ever be good enough? and will i always want more?
what is this seemingly endless string of cravings..goals…? in all of it, what has been the constant need, when met, always appreciated, if taken for granted.
my mother’s love. that often feels better and realer than any crafting of it. a good slice of pizza and a great dance session. dancing. it’s difficult to always be the dancer i see and feel on the inside. it’s not always so easy for me to just ride. maybe i’m waiting on the right song, after the right day, int he right mood.
or maybe, if i just keep on dancing like the song says…maybe i’ll eventually open up and dance like a bird flies. high, high above the mountain tops.
in case you’re wondering…
this is what i’m working on nowadays.
Today is a Cloudy Day
I almost forgot that a have a blog. And that it’s good. And that I should keep it up.
Let’s see… and update:
It’s May. My niece turns 1 in two days and I have no idea what to get her! I wanted to be able to shower her with Peruvian treasures, but my shopping was cut wayyy to short while on vacation thanks to someone. No, really it’s all my fault. I shouldn’t listen to other people’s advise on things I clearly know how to do much better than they (i.e. shopping). I digress.
I went to Peru. The Inca remains were stunning! What wasn’t stunning was the travel and accommodations I had to endure while in Peru. Don’t get me wrong, Peru has got some very hospitable accommodations. Plush even. But those places unfortunately were not part of my experience in Peru. Next time I’ll do it right. I went with Moe on a seven day adventure. All I’ll say is that Peru is a magical place and I will most certainly be back.
Other than that, I’ve been working the job and making baby steps with my pet projects – on the side. I’ve also been missing the days when “jobs” were on the side and pet projects were my mainstay. C’est la vie, I suppose. Must the grass ALWAYS appear greener on the other side?
I was hoping my trip to Peru would serve as some sort of spiritual reawakening, as my trip to the Gulf Coast of Florida did this time last year, but no such luck. Instead, I’ve decided to forge my own spiritual awakening by returning to what I found last year – positive thinking.
As you can probably tell by the tone of this post…after all these months of blog silence…I’ve somehow found myself in a bit of a slump. I’m generally the kind of person who likes to stay secluded in my misery until I feel like my old joyful self again. I’m not one of those misery loves company kinds of gals. It’s been a very rough start to the year for me emotionally, and a lot of crap is still unresolved. Such is life, this is just mine. I need a little luxury in my life and my job is effing with my paychecks again. There is nothing I want more than a shopping spree.
In other more positive news, I’m directing my very first music video. Can you believe it!? I can’t. I can’t believe it’s taken me this long to finally direct a music video. When I first went away to college I decided to study film with the intention of creating documentaries and music videos. And now here I am at age 30. I’ve got half a dozen docs under my belt, but where oh where are these music videos?
Look out for music video #1: The Joyous Collapse. Coming soon to a computer screen near you. And ya know what, I should probably do a big-screen release as well. Yeah. Why not celebrate such an accomplishment? By golly, think I will.
